28 October 2015

europe on film

I've been making it a point to shoot a lot more film in the past couple of months, and I've really been enjoying the process. When I started planning my trip to Europe to visit friends this past August, I was weighing in on the idea of leaving my digital camera at home and shooting the entire trip on film. In the end, I chickened out of that idea since I'm still learning how to shoot better on film, but I didn't want to leave it behind, so I ended up bringing both cameras and alternating between the two throughout the duration of the trip! I got the couple of rolls of film I shot while I was there developed a couple of weeks ago, and just got around to scanning the prints to my computer today. All this to say, here are a few of my favourite film shots from Munich, Vienna, and Bratislava this summer!

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02 October 2015

this is nineteen

 photo 0017_8A_zpsfuev7wib.jpgfilm photo from early this summer

I still care about all of the things I should have gotten over months ago. Every time I think I have something figured out, it changes on me again and I'm back to square one. I still panic about my future and don't always know which direction I should be going. The four friends I see on a regular basis now mean so much more to me than all of the friends I used to have in high school. I'm still not used to working full time. I feel like I should have a better handle on my emotions and the way I handle things. I still mess up time and time again and really wish I didn't. Even the simplest things seem impossibly hard. There are weeks where the only socializing I can commit to is laying with friends in mine or their beds. I watch a lot of Netflix while wishing I was doing something productive. I write a lot of lists of things I should do but never seem to have the time to do them. I'm trying my hardest to be the best possible version of myself. 

I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying.