today i feel like fall

March 30th, 2014

I feel like fall today, even though it's starting to feel like spring outside. I always think how strange it is to feel like a season, but today, fall is the only emotion that makes any sense at all. In Lit class on Friday, we were reading some of Shakespeare's sonnets and Mrs. Lestrange was telling us how fall is often used to describe the decline of life. Then Maggie texted me with the revelation that it's not called fall because of the leaves that leave their branches, but rather because it's the decline of the year. Strangely, despite it being used to signify the end of life, fall is beautiful. So maybe feeling like this isn't so bad after all.

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I wrote the above words sometime last month, fully intending to post them, but deciding against it at the last minute because they don't make much sense at all. Then today, today I feel like fall again. And I thought about these words and wondered if I'd saved them somewhere and it turns out that I did, so I'm posting them now. Not because they'll make any sense to you, but because they make all the sense to me. 

little things, big things, part three

21: Eye colour

When I was little, they were green. Without sounding too pretentious, they now appear gold. After countless hours of googling eye colours, I believe they're called "amber".

22: Hair colour

Medium brown at the top, light, golden brown near the bottom? People sometimes ask if I have ombre hair. Nope, just really, reeeeally grown out roots.

23: Ever done a prank call

Yes! That was the most rebellious thing we could think of at age twelve.

24: Favourite movie

My long-time favourite is a film called Andre, which is about a seal. A new-found favourite is About Time. Seriously, SO good.

25: Favourite song

I'm not a huge fan of this whole "favourite" thing. Why choose one thing when you can enjoy them all? Having said that, a few of my favourites are "A Perfect World" by The Sam Chase, and "Counting Stars" by One Republic.

26: How I feel right now

"Goodish" probably answers that best. Things are turning out to be alright, but everything's still pretty messy at the moment. 

27: Someone I love

My mom. Moms always win, right?

28: My current relationship status

Plz no.

29: My relationship with my parents

I think I have a good relationship with my mom. It's not the same as it used to be, but I can trust her with anything. My relationship with my biological dad is non-existent, and my step-dad and I just kind of coexist.

30: Favourite holiday

Does any other holiday even stand a chance against Christmas?