09 December 2014

six months

I'm so full of emotions tonight. Time seems to be flying by faster than ever before and it honestly scares the hell out of me. Whenever I tell someone that time is starting to go so quickly, they always respond with, "just you wait, it just goes faster and faster as you age", and I cry a little because I don't want time to go like this.

It's been six months since I graduated high school. Six months into the real world and I'm still in shock that high school has ended. These past six months feel like a blur. I've done a lot, and I remember everything, but in a hazy sort of way where it seems like more of a movie than my life.

I was texting a friend about this the other night and she responded with, "it's so hard to feel like you're living", and I totally get that. It's not that I'm not doing anything. In between work and sleep there are a whole lot of quick visits with friends, out of town adventures, and family gatherings, but I still don't feel like I'm living. I feel like a robot on repeat, going through the rhythmic patterns of life, not really stopping to take it all in and process it all. I feel like an outsider to my own life, and it's a weird feeling.

I'm not complaining though. Life is strangely good despite the long hours and lack of sleep, and I feel like I'm exactly where I need to be at this point in my life. Change is good for a person, but it sure is strange.

1 comment:

  1. Oh yes, they're right ... time does fly by. But then there are moments where it all stops and life gives you the opportunity to make incredible memories and to remember pieces and parts of such a magnificent world.

    Yes, life goes by quickly, and it seems to go in rhythm for a while, but you're just at the beginning. You have much more life to live and things to see. Get out and see and do, and it will all be wonderful!