on growing up, and such

When we were younger we would talk for hours about what it would be like to be a teenager, what it would be like to grow up, have special privileges, and be given responsibility. We would talk about our plans for the future, most commonly, what we wanted to be when we grow up, and although the goals are slightly more realistic now, the conversations are still there.

Why is the future so soon, yet so out of focus? Why are we so unsure of the decisions that need to be made? I want answers to these unanswerable questions, and I want to know what it is that I'm supposed to do with my life, because sometimes I feel like college or university isn't even something I need to do, but I know that for the sake of my future, I should plan for it anyways. 

Sometimes I feel like my life would be too boring if I'm not constantly abroad, but like everything else, who knows how I'll feel in a few years time. 

If you're a teenage girl between the ages of 14 and 18, I'm sure you know what I'm going through. If you're younger than that, all I can say is brace yourself, and if you're older, I would love some guidance. 

This thing called life? It's crazy. So please excuse me while I go watch teletubbies on YouTube and pretend to be three again! :)

xoxo - hope

pinterest

I've been very bad with keeping up with my pinterest since I've discovered tumblr, but every one in awhile I remember it's there and fall back in love all over again! Follow me if you'd like;

Oh, and any thoughts on the new design? :)

xoxo - hope

expressing myself

If I could express myself with words, I wouldn't need a camera. Sometimes I need to remember that when I'm stressing out over writing a perfect post. For now, I'll just stick with the things I know;

Happy Saturday!

xoxo - hope

love letters to kitty paw | 2012

When I signed up for blogging I had no idea I would be doing crazy things like writing love letters to a cat, but low and behold;

xoxo - hope

a different kind of letter

I wrote a letter yesterday. But not the kind of letter you're thinking of. It was a letter to my dad who I haven't seen in over a year and a half, and it explains in excruciating detail why I don't want him to be a part of my life. It started out with him driving the 12+ hour drive from where he lives to come and talk to me and my sister. He called me yesterday to ask me when I would be able to see him to talk about "our relationship" because "it isn't right". This scared me for two reasons; first, because he didn't even talk to us before leaving, and second, my sister isn't even in town. 

My relationship with my dad has always been a sore spot for me, and although I normally try and push it off by saying I don't really care, I really do. With that said, I am so done with feeling this way, and I don't have room in my life for people who aren't going to make an effort to be a part of it. 

So there we go. By the end of the day, my dad will know how I feel, and while yes, I do feel bad that what I have to say is going to hurt him, it needs to be put out there. 

I feel weak because I'm not able to tell him how I feel face-to-face, but I feel good that I'm finally able to get this out of my system.  

If you have a dad who makes an effort to be a part of your life, go give him a big hug for me. You are so much luckier than you think!

xoxo - hope

new york, new york!

I've been getting reeeaaally excited about my upcoming trip to NYC in August! So excited in fact, that I've made a list of all the must-see attractions! So here they are;

World Trade Center

Statue Of Liberty

Manhatten Bridge

Brooklyn Bridge

Empire State Building

Grand Central Station

FAO Schwarz

Central Park

Trump Tower

The Plaza

Times Square

Rockefeller Center (Top Of The Rock)

New York Public Library

If you've ever been to New York City and have some suggestions or tips I would love to know! I am SO excited! :)

xoxo - hope

life in black and white

xoxo - hope

february

How is it possible that we've already lived an entire month of this new year? I say it all the time, but my goodness, how time flies!

January was a good, long, cold month full of school, warm drinks, stressing for finals, and a little bit of snow, and  although the first few days of a new year are always exciting, the rest of the January days are normally dull and boring, which is why I tend to say that January is my least favourite month.

Normally I dislike change, but in this case, change is welcome, especially if it's welcoming the month of love! Also, now that it's February, I'm ironically starting to get out of that awful January funk! Woohoo!



Happy February Everyone! :)

xoxo - hope